Ok I am writing this in hopes I can get my butt to the gym by my self. My worry about my husband going with his brother in the AM making it not as likely he will go with me in the pm has come true, well that and he has been on on call and called almost every time we have planed to go this week. I do not blame him I would not be so keen to go 2 times a day, oh wait that is one of my goals. My brother in-law needs him he is going through a divorce with phyco Charo. GRRRRRRR. I need to get over this fear of going by my self. I need this I like this I am so bound in feeling judged I am frozen unable to do it! I hate this I want this so much for me I need a work out buddy. seriously I do even if it is just for a while till I get going, the support from friends and loved ones is great. right now I need the physical support of someone there. Not that is has to be fallowing me around or anything just someone to go with so I feel like less of a freak walking in and leaving. If I am feeling the need to hide I can go in the dark room. I know it is just an hour but it just is so daunting to do it.
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