New view

Taking a look at my new motivation has been a preoccupation with me today I was feeling a bit stupid for letting a trip be so important to me. I think things have been that same so long I just could not muster a change. I had an in lighting chat with a friend of mine about it on line. She was not surprised nor found it silly that this would motivate me, she is motivated the same way the want to be able to do what she wants to do keeps her going too. It has been a number of years since that I hurt so much I could not move when I was ill. I think that happened so long I forgot some of the things I long to do I feel the desire to be able to do them coming back to me it has felt so frustrating to me as this has happened because I just could not. I hope this lasts for me I like the idea of not being so trapped by my body.